Hi, I know no one will read this except my best mate, but if you do I am thankful.

And one question, should I do more warriors art, animations, art of my characters, wolf pics, or human art?

This if kind of a rant in a way. The title with the underlines bold font is the part where the rant ends for your reading pleasure, you do not have to read the rant at all.

So anyway happy 4th of July. My dad came in for the week end. I bet you all did fancy stuff this lovely hot Saturday. The high light of today was working on my Sweeney Todd shoes in the isolation of my room, seeing star trek, and going pool searching.
Holidays aren't a big deal at my house. Today I was supposed to go see Public Enemies with my pirate loving, gun obsessed dad but he decided that he'd rather see star trek (he used to watch the tv show all the time, if it weren't for him I wouldn't love spock 8D)
But of course he failed me again. That's all he ever does. He doesn't like me very much... I try so hard to be like him but he just runs off buying more stupid expensive trains for my brother. I know some of you probably have your father living by himself with another family and stuff, I know I'm lucky to have my dad around and all but.. I only really see him six months a year. And we never hang out together, he always leaves me in the house with my mom on the week ends wasting our money on more stuff he doesn't need. I don't know. Just... Even my mom tried asking him to take me to Public enemies (she knows how much I idolize Johnny Depp XD she says I even dress like him)
But he was just like no, I'd rather see star trek instead. He was here a few weeks ago and he said "Oh sorry, I would have taken you to see public enemies today if I had known about it"
I don't know. He's betrayed me so much over the years. Sorry for ranting at you all I have no one to talk to or to release my feelings at (for 13 years feelings really do build up), I know you've probably have been through worst and probably don't even have a dad but... Seeing him favor my brother just kind of breaks my heart. Mainly because it seems both of my parents like him more. My brother likes hitting me and yelling at me, And he's my twin to, he's older too. He's only older because he was struggling for air before we were born (Yeah, so I was never actually to tell the truth born, My mother had to get an operation to take me and my brother out only because he was suffocating.)

So yeah, fun... We found a leek in our big collapsible pool so my mom has been ranting at me none stop about it. I feel so crushed by stuff right now, one corner of my mind all I can feel is hate, another part all I can think of is... Him... The boy I love that shall remained unnamed. What scares me is that I might not see him ever again or... I can never be with him... That's what scares me the most, I'm too scared to ask my one friend for his email or something because well... I don't know. One thing I fear is not know what the other thinks...
I know someday I will hate myself so much for not trying to be with him but... I don't know anymore. If my mom knew I liked someone... She might think me mad (Just because of how young I am, and no I am not under aged so piss off!). I know, I feel ever so childish to worry about such things but... I don't know... I really don't know. One thing is that I do have two chances to maybe see him again... But I'm afraid he's just fooling around with me. I don't know. I'm also afraid that this phantom memory of him is just, imaginary, that I want to remember him differently then what he is... I don't know.
Sorry, I'm straying off topic too much. Like I said, I don't feel like I have anyone to talk to about what's going on in my head. The one person I did have in real life before is now ignoring me. Sorry... I am going insane I can tell you that.

RANT BE OVER! COME HERE FOR BETTER STUFF!

My dad came in for the week end.
I just realized that I am attracted to brown eyes, that is something entirely new to me XD
And I found out that no matter who plays Cap'n James Kerk he is still annoying as hell!

Ok anyway, back to the topic.
I am making Sweeney Todd shoes, yeah you heard me right matey! Sweeney Todd shoes!
I forced my mom to buy we a pair of white canvas shoes for three bucks at K-mart.
And so far they are almost done! Yayz!
One shoe has a razor with "Never forget" on it and the other a bloody heart with ST on it and "never forgive" written on it! On the sides it's black and white striped with blood drops and red highlights. (Epic win)

And I get to be the background artist for 's comic Warriors Hostage so awesomeness 8D (That is if I don't lose the job for being slow D8)

I'm also having more and more time on my hands so I might do a full picture of all the wolves that make alt3r3d alt3r3d (If you don't know what Alt3r3d is then go here ~ALT3R3D please!)
Or I'll open up trades (wolf or human characters only though), either one. But if I do do trades you will have to finish your part before I even start on my side of the trade.

I also am working on some animations lately so stay tuned for them (soundless flash ones)

I am also way too scared of playing Silent Hill 2, my problem is that I am afraid of killing James, if it weren't for that I wouldn't care XD I also flipp'n hate the god damn controls on that game! It's hard to not run into a wall! DX

I should be able to go see a production of Beauty and the Beast that my blond haired sweet heart is in so that should be fun (No he doesn't get to play beast sadly, that would be epic if he did, he might play Gaston or the short big nosed side kick of Gaston though! I haven't a clue what part he plays.)

We didn't do anything for 4th of July, we never do anything for the holidays, if I'm lucky my aunt will come over for my B-day but that's it.

I'M OPENING FEATURES! I'll put as many people up here as I get! After I feature you you must feature me in your journal! Must!

FEATURES!!!!



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Yep, I'm featuring three pieces of art work, yay!
If you would like to be featured then post me in your journal and note me.